Jagamum naan Ahamum naan

 At times I do need to do this. Random Ramble.  There are 200 things running in the brain at the same time. Work (never dearth here), personal life, waiting period on extension and , a future all seem to be hitting me at the same time. OK, that's not 200. But feels like that We recently lost one of my uncle to COVID and it is somehow shattered the peace and I am shaken. Now I am questioning too many things including me coming up here and leaving my parents there alone It felt like a right decision for me and Dewy at that time and now can't deny there is some serious soul searching happening You don't get what you want and when you get it , all the things that can go wrong; goes wrong and ta-da.... there you are my guilt-ridden-conscious jumping right at me Though I was going on a day-at-a-time process..... I am little tipsy about everything right now.  Do I stay or Do I return.  Alone in homeland or Alone as Resident Alien.  How the heck do I save for Dewy's education. 

 Dewy and I did our fair share of trail walking and climbing rugged (as rugged as we  can manage) mountains last summer. Last year presented its own challenges and one being no roaming in summers. Winters anyway we are bound to home. So we found a new venue to burn our energy that's walking/hiking or sometimes us just heaving through the less trodden paths Dewy (infact for a lazybones) did a good amount of walking and she took it in stride(certainly pun intended) One thing that we rocked is, we climbed a 4 mile hike with her. She did whine a little at the 3rd mile, but nothing deterred her to climb some 1000 feet. This trail was listed as strenuous. But I think it is a new love that we found together. I love to spend that time with nature instead of looking into screens and I felt we at least spend some time together like this and talk to each other.  Recently I have had this feeling that we don't talk much. It is part of teenagism coming my way. But since it is very weird to n

Hey Girl!! Hello... You know I like to tell you I have a favorite season It is a free country. You are entitled to have one. What is it by the way? It is FALL season Oh (Not the happy one). Let me ask, what are the other seasons you love. I mean the next best (hoping) I have only 2 seasons in my place, FALL and STUNTED Now you have me in surprise. Are you saying it is never gets better in your land It was good in the early periods of life, but right now there is dearth of everything and absolute lack of respect Sighhh. I get that. Corporate Life. I have given enough pre- warnings to my caretaker by all those falling sprigs almost everywhere she can see Forementioned Caregiver begging: I promise my dear I will do my best to care for your natural resources, meanwhile, please don't wither on me. Dewy would stop introducing me to her friends if I become bald.