Jagamum naan Ahamum naan

Yeah a lab rat (Nope!!! not my cooking. We are well past it. I wouldn't do that blasphemy) Now to the topic!!! 2020 Favorite topic. When school started, we had 2 choices given by school - Hybrid or Cyber. I chose hybrid. It means some days in school and some days at home and the school district had multiple meetings with parents and the board on the plans and finally our district decided to keep 2 days school and 3 days home. Also to thin the crowd, they decided to split it based on the last name. So coming back, Dewy was hybrid. When I announced the same in a parent's group, I am sure that  my careless attitude towards my child (as other parents say) would have topic at many homes. Truthfully, it is a scary decision and it wasn't a impetuous decision. I knew the risks I was putting Dewy  into and also many days of fighting with my inner devil to figure out what to do. Dewy (as many kids right now) , totally shut down from friends really wanted to see someone of her age, ev

After a long time I had sometime with my friends and a no-judgement zone where I can open up about anything and everything  I just let my guard down and cried. Oh boy!! That was a wonderful feeling to let steam out of system. I had 2 people telling me that I doing things as good as it can be and just what I wanted to hear(We all need at times to hear that though it may not be true always 😀) In FRIENDS, they say about scheduling some me-cry time. It all makes sense now. To act grown up all time and be correct politically/diplomatically always is a pain. I have been putting up a brave face both at work and house chores and single handedly managing things which barely leaves with me with much needed me-time.  Between driving to classes and now this COVID driven at home schooling , I am always on driver's seat and no respite.  Though that outburst sounded silly next day morning,  I certainly did feel lightened.