Jagamum naan Ahamum naan

My mom All these years , even today I don't see her relaxing or complaining of her health. All my years that I remember, I have seen her running pillar to post to make sure me and our home had its best.  She has my pillar of support. My bad days, My good days- She has been part of all it. Even when I am in my worst moments, she has been with me. Why this post? You may ask.  Dewy triggered something in me yesterday.  There was a small kismish between us and I felt little betrayed that Dewy didn't bother much about my how I care about her and was little too self centered. It made me feel (a tinge) that it really doesn't matter to my daughter how I take care of her and all she cares is what she does. All the well meaning genes in me says that it is temporary and that's how most kids are and it is my responsibility to teach her to care(will get there slowly). Then was thinking through night that if I have ever made my mom feel like that.  I am no where near her when it come

These past few weeks have been emotionally draining and continues to be. To simply put it, I am absolutely not happy. I mean one would think that this would require a trip to therapist. I did have some absolutely overwhelming news that should trigger a Yay!!! Mood instead all I have is this melancholy. And as it says I have not just one but few reasons around it nothing big but cannot be thrown away as well. I generally don't say this out loud and my friends who tag me as workaholic would gasp. But I don't like my job anymore. I don't do anything interesting. I am doing repetitive stuff and stuck in a rut. Last few days had many emotional altercation with my friend and it has also been a drainer. Infact that was one big reason Plus this new lease of life that I have been handed over to me has added many questions about what kind of place am I in. Only shining star in this whole cloudy looming sky is Dewy. I have been thoroughly enjoying spending time with her not only to se