Jagamum naan Ahamum naan

I have recently noticed that even when I am surrounded by people, I am alone It is just me in my thoughts. What do I think about? Nothing really comes to my mind I am not an introvert but still making conversations hurt All my conversations are meaningless My voice is probably not heard though I shout from my roof tops Or I think I am shouting Do I enjoy silence? You know me well I don't What do I want? To be heard... To be spoken to.... so that I feel I am important to you What do I want? A drive to get up from bed... A push to work... Motivation to exercise... Interests to pursue and some one to talk to.

 This is little late probably a little too late. But this year was a like a roller coaster ... one of the good kinds. So 1) I left my company which was like my home base for last 15 years and kind of becoming my second home. It took me lot of courage to leave the place.  2) Moved to a completely different city. It wasn't easy as the older place had gotten comfortable 3) Added someone to family. We had challenges but at the end it turned out good 4) Dewy had her own challenges to move from a friend overloaded place to a place where finding a cow is easier than finding friends 5) Dewy finding her way to manage her life around different things in a new place by itself was something that I am thankful for. We all grow in different way and this was hers 6) We did California. Literally California - LA, San Francisco, Monterey Bay, Lake Tahoe. It was one hell of trip for 10 days and it ended with some unexpected surprises 7) We finally did the Disney. The one thing I promised Dewy wh...